The End Is Near~

The end is near. We are so close that I can almost touch it, but part of it still feels so far away. This week has been dragging on. We had another hot day on Sunday, and I put on pre-pregnancy summer dress. I knew that it was a bit revealing on top, but I asked Jake if it was okay for me to wear around the house. I think that he is too scared of my constant changing emotions to say anything other than, “You look great.” I have been pretty emotional the last few weeks and it seems to get worst as each week passes. I find myself crying over some of the smallest things, and poor Jake gets put right in the middle of my emotional rollercoaster. It was really hot on Sunday and Monday night and I ended up sleeping on the couch or at least trying to. I also woke up on Monday with another case of my horrific heartburn. I ended up walking around the house for a few hours before plopping down in front of the T.V. I feel asleep 30 minutes before Jake got up for work and he was surprised to find me once again on the couch. He said, “I don’t think she will be born with a little hair, but so much that we will have to get her a hair cut on the way home from the hospital.”

I had another doctor’s appointment on Monday and out little girl is weight over 6lbs at this point. Jake and I both find it a bit amazing that we have a baby that big inside of me. She is still above the 50% but not as large as she has been. I don’t really care how big she is because I just want her to be happy and healthy. I broke out with a wonderful heat rash on my belly on Monday night. That was a nightmare. I called the midwife on Tuesday to see if I could put anything on it. They had me come in to make sure it was not a more serious rash you can get during pregnancy. I sat in the office for over 3 hours waiting for the blood test to come back, and it was indeed heat rash. I figure if it’s not one thing then it’s another. She was so active at the midwife appointment, but once again her activity has started to slow down. I just keep trying to remind myself to stay calm and concentrate on her movements. I find myself freaking out when it slows down, but I just have to remember that as long as I feel her move things are fine. Jake keeps telling me, “She is in a baby straight jacket now and that makes it hard to move.” Other highlights of this week is how exhausted that I feel. I have zero energy and all I want to do is sleep. I got my hair done on Friday and that was nice to get done before out little one arrives. I started having contractions and pretty bad cramps on Friday night. I started keeping track of them and they were all over the place. I would get them 4 minutes apart to 40 minutes. I figured it must have just been a case of false labor, but they didn’t feel good one bit. I figure this is nothing compared to what is to come.

I can’t believe that today it’s the end of May and I’m only 3 days away from being 38 weeks pregnant. The end is getting so close and before we know it we will no longer be a family of 2, but a family of 3 (that is without counting the doggies). I have decided that the last few days or weeks of being pregnant that I’m going to try and cherish it. I want to follow some of these rules:

*Stay calm and relaxed
*Enjoy every little movement inside of me even if it doesn’t feel good
*Spend some quite time with Jake
*Take the dogs for a few more walks
*Do some baking
*Try not to feel strange when someone other than me of Jake tries to rub my belly
*Enjoy all the sleep I can get now
*Cherish all the little things that might drive me nuts about pregnancy like: going to the loo (toilet) a million times, the heartburn, not being able to get comfy in bed and the exhaustion.
*Eat some junk food and feel okay about it because before long I will not have the excuse of being pregnant.
*Go out to dinner with Jake.

I hope that everyone is having a great long weekend. I will try and keep everyone posted in the next few weeks. We are on baby waiting time now. She can come out whenever she wants now.

~Candice