My Therapy

Spending time at the park with Reagan makes everyday so much fun. I'm so thankful that I get to stay home with her and watch her grow everyday.



I love the morning with my big girl now!



When it comes to my blog I have to say that for the most part that I'm a pretty chipper person. In my everyday life I'm a pretty chipper person. I might have my occasional pity party, but that only lasts 10 minutes and then I'm back to chipper Candice. I should be working, but with my luck their is no work to be done first thing. I'm instead having my pity party before Reagan wakes up. I'm drinking my coffee and feeling sorry for myself as I watch the sun rise. I know that as soon as I hear my little girl wake that this Mommie's pity party will be over. I'm feeling sad because my little girl is growing up so fast. I know that every parent feels sad, but happy watching their child grow up. I can't believe that today it has been 1 year and 6 months since Reagan was born. It has been 547.5 days since she came into our lives. These have been some of the best days of my life. She as given me purpose in life that I never before experienced. She has brightened each day for Jake and I. I then get sad thinking that she might be it for Jake and I. I always knew that she might be it, but never thought it might actually be true. I thought that we would be able to have at least 2 kids. Were young, healthy and have lots of love to give. I won't let myself get mad at God, but I do question, "Why why WHY???" I sometimes think if I understood why we can't seem to get pregnant, but young teenager can I might feel better. Who am I fooling I won't feel better until we have another baby. Well, today I get to see the reproductive endocrinologist again. I get to be pricked and prodded again in search of what is wrong with me. I know it sounds horrible, but for living in a World that so many doctors are giving out medication why can't mine. I want to know the issue and then take a magic pill that will make everything all better. Well, my pity party is over because Reagan is awake. Thank you Lord for Reagan. If I can't have another so so so happy I have her.