Baby on the Brain.....

I wouldn't change a thing about my days! We all get a little angry at times.

Its official I have baby on the brain. It took us forever to get pregnant with Reagan, or at least that is how it felt for this Mamma. It was month after month of crying over no baby in my belly. I couldn’t understand why not me. It seemed like everyone around me was getting pregnant. I would go out in town, and I felt like there were new babies and pregnant mammas all around me. I couldn’t help, but feel like the Mother Nature wasn’t on my side. After I found out that I was pregnant with Reagan I swore that she would be our one, and only. We had finally struck gold. Jake also agreed that Reagan would be it, but I think it was because he couldn’t handle facing his wife in pain over not being pregnant. He would hold me and promise that soon it would be our turn. When Reagan was 4 months old I told Jake that I wanted another baby, and that I wasn’t done. I think he thought I was a little nuts, but I couldn’t imagine Reagan being our only one. I felt like our family wasn’t yet complete. Have you ever done something and it just came so natural, as if you had been doing it forever. That is how I feel about being a Mom. I feel like it just comes natural. It’s the best thing that I have done with my life. I’m exhausted and at my wits end at times, but I love every second of it. I may have days that Reagan won’t stop screaming and didn’t sleep well, but I still feel good about being a Mom. I love every day that I get to spend with her. She is such a blessing to both Jake and I. I’m ready to do it all over again. I'm ready for the blow out poo and managing a buys toddler all at the same time. I’m just not sure if my body agrees. I try not to get down over the fact that I feel like I’m somewhat reliving the past. That I see babies, pregnant mommies & everyone that was pregnant when I was before is starting to get pregnant again. I think the reason I’m not crying over that fact that I’m not pregnant again is because I feel blessed that I have one great kid. I hate the thought that she might be it, but I believe that what God has in store for us is what we’ll get. I’m not giving up without a fight though.